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Anonymous asked: Will the coldness ever go away? I'm in recovery from restriction, and while I'm not AS cold as I used to be, my hands are constantly cold, and I'm still colder than everyone else.

The body takes a long time to heal, you’ve got to be patient and continue feeding yourself enough food every day! I don’t know much about it, though, sorry; feeling the cold has always been my worst symptom. I have super purple hands and feet.

Anonymous asked: Alright, so my question is if your ED makes you think your thigh gap makes you thin, does that mean it makes you perceive others as being "thin" if they have a thigh gap, and "fat" if they don't have one? How does you ED effect your views on other people and their images? I'm not trying to be offensive or rude... I am just just legitimately curious. Xx :)

In regards to that post- I was focused on my feelings about thigh gaps, and I didn’t mean to come off as if they are the single factor by which my ED judges someone as “thin” or “fat”. 

In the past, my ED has strongly affected my views of other people, but now, it’s more in an admiring way. I am more capable of appreciating and loving different sorts of bodies. 

Anonymous asked: beautiful things about grace: she has excellent taste in room decor, she has intelligence far beyond her age, her writing is well put together and flows so wonderfully, her heart is overflowing with passion, she has cute hair 10/10, she has managed to put up a fight for this long (just imagine what she will do once this battle is in the past). nothing can replace who you really are, grace. when the thigh gap is gone, your true self will still remain <3


Today&#8217;s breakfast: whole wheat banana pancakes with blueberries, raspberries, and peanut butter.

Anonymous asked: How do you make your oatmeal? It looks so good, I really want to try it but I don't know what quantities of oats/liquid, whether to use milk or water or both or how to cook it! Can you please help? Yours looks amazing! Hope you're okay xx

Regular oatmeal:

1/2 cup oats, 1 cup liquid (it’s tasty to try 1/2 cup milk and 1/2 cup water combined, or 1 full cup milk), ~1 tsp vanilla extract

Put everything into a saucepan and bring to a low-medium heat; cook until desired consistency. If you’re topping it with fruit, try throwing a bit of the fruit into the pan to cook with the oats - for example, a bit of diced pear, apple, or mashed banana! 

Baked banana oatmeal:

1/2 cup oats, 1/2 cup milk, 1/2 cup water, 1 tsp vanilla extract, a banana, 1/2 tsp baking powder

Preheat oven to 180C. Soak oats with liquid for 10-15 mins. Mash banana, leaving several slices for decoration. Combine oats with mashed banana, vanilla, and baking powder, then pour into small baking dish. Top with banana slices and fresh blueberries, if you like. Place in oven for about 20 minutes, or until top is brown and kinda crispy! Make sure you top it with lotsa peanut butter after, hehe. 

Anonymous asked: I got a meal plan and I follow it so far but my family don't eats from breakfast to dinner and I have lunch and my afternoon snack inbetween. I feel horrible greedy and ugh and I'm not even underweight anymore! Oh I'm about to give up:(

You could give up. It’s your choice; it’s all up to you. You could give up, and give back in to a life full of misery and depression. 

Are you really going to stop fighting? (I think you’re stronger than that!)

Follow your meal plan to the T. It’s the best thing you can possibly do. 


Anonymous asked: My family doesn't support my recovery. They don't believe I'm truly sick, just attention hungry and whiny. My mother says "it's all in my head" and I "want to be like this" and it hurts so much. I feel alone in the world. When I relapse, no one notices. And it scares me. I'm the only person who cares to see myself get better. I don't know if I'm strong enough to do this alone

I sympathize for you, darling, and how terribly painful that situation must be. However, don’t say that you’re alone - you’re definitely not. You need professional help outside of your family. Ask a parent or an older sibling to take you to a doctor. Convince them. If they refuse to even take you to a doctor, take yourself. If you need a companion to go with you, find an older friend or simply just a friend. You’re right, you’re not strong enough to do this alone, you need treatment. I believe in you. xo